so listening to the cash cash album has put me in a suprisingly good mood. life is great.
the last time i wrote in here was four months ago (emo)
after reading all the entries i wrote from summer 2008 til feb 2009, i kind of feel foolish, only because i wasted so much time on a boy who didn't really take me as serious as i took him when i should've just enjoyed my free time & friends.
pro of last summer: reconnecting with an old friend who is now like family to me, christine! she's a huge benefit not only cause she has only been there for me but honestly no other girl best friend has been as genuine and honest with me. even when he have petty fights, we both realize & talk instead of pointing fingers. there really aren't many legit people left.
con of last summer: losing myself & personality because of one broken heart (pathetic right?) drinking too much = flirty behavior = bad decisions.
i guess the only reason why i decided to post in this again was just because i'm so happy with the way life is taking me now. things have been gotten shockingly better ever since april 2009, after my birthday. i'm back to being that happy go lucky girl and i'm not constantly worrying about my health or worrying about a carefree boy. the people in my life today are still around for a reason. no matter how close you think you are or how much you think you love a person, it really all comes down to your future, the ones who truly care about your wellbeing are the keepers. blah blah... i don't even know where i'm heading with that sentence.
as far as 'relationships' i do have my eye on someone, if i do end up with this boy then i won't fuck it up like i did with the last one. given at the right time i'll let him in to see the real me, not the superficial me everyone else sees. all i know right now is i love affection & of course it's nice to know someone is there. then again, who really needs a boyfriend girlfriend title/label? to me, that usually ruins everything. only cause i know when couples become official or public, it gives people something to talk about. that's what also ruined my last relationship (gossip, lies, drama) i guess i keep referring to my ex because of that relationship, i learned a lot about myself. about my wants, about traits i dislike & like in the opposite sex, improving myself for the better, etc etc... relationships are crazy but i think everyone knows they don't want to be alone in the long run. everyone secretly needs companionship right?
anywayyyyyyyyy this was very poorly written due to lack of sleep & rushing myself to finish this. if you actually read this then wow you rule at life. good night
the last time i wrote in here was four months ago (emo)
after reading all the entries i wrote from summer 2008 til feb 2009, i kind of feel foolish, only because i wasted so much time on a boy who didn't really take me as serious as i took him when i should've just enjoyed my free time & friends.
pro of last summer: reconnecting with an old friend who is now like family to me, christine! she's a huge benefit not only cause she has only been there for me but honestly no other girl best friend has been as genuine and honest with me. even when he have petty fights, we both realize & talk instead of pointing fingers. there really aren't many legit people left.
con of last summer: losing myself & personality because of one broken heart (pathetic right?) drinking too much = flirty behavior = bad decisions.
i guess the only reason why i decided to post in this again was just because i'm so happy with the way life is taking me now. things have been gotten shockingly better ever since april 2009, after my birthday. i'm back to being that happy go lucky girl and i'm not constantly worrying about my health or worrying about a carefree boy. the people in my life today are still around for a reason. no matter how close you think you are or how much you think you love a person, it really all comes down to your future, the ones who truly care about your wellbeing are the keepers. blah blah... i don't even know where i'm heading with that sentence.
as far as 'relationships' i do have my eye on someone, if i do end up with this boy then i won't fuck it up like i did with the last one. given at the right time i'll let him in to see the real me, not the superficial me everyone else sees. all i know right now is i love affection & of course it's nice to know someone is there. then again, who really needs a boyfriend girlfriend title/label? to me, that usually ruins everything. only cause i know when couples become official or public, it gives people something to talk about. that's what also ruined my last relationship (gossip, lies, drama) i guess i keep referring to my ex because of that relationship, i learned a lot about myself. about my wants, about traits i dislike & like in the opposite sex, improving myself for the better, etc etc... relationships are crazy but i think everyone knows they don't want to be alone in the long run. everyone secretly needs companionship right?
anywayyyyyyyyy this was very poorly written due to lack of sleep & rushing myself to finish this. if you actually read this then wow you rule at life. good night